Life is Crazy Sometimes

Life is so crazy sometimes. 

But, when I am in college, I feel like life is always crazy. [I am even drinking from a cup right now that says, "THAT'S CRAY"]

My life seems to be pulled in every other direction, all at once.

I am amidst midterms right now, and have been for the last three weeks, and will be for at least one more.

I am nearly dead. I am up every night until at least 12:30 studying for my Accounting test on Friday. Then, I have other classes that need attention, too, after that. 

This is currently my weekly schedule: 

Monday- Work & School 8-7, then FHE from 7-8

Tuesday- Work & School from 9-9

Wednesday- Work & School from 11-7

Thursday- Work & School from 9-5, Temple from 6-9:30

Friday- School from 8-10 

Add on top of that all of the study time that I have for my classes. I literally have a class that has hours [sometimes 4 whole hours] of software to watch before each class, not including studying it or taking the quizzes.

Around 1:30 each day, I hit my breaking point. I become so exhausted that I just need a nap. I can no longer function until I sleep.

Yes, I am a napper now. 

I never thought I would say that, but I am. I love naps. I am still alive because of naps.

I have been fighting a cold for about a month right now, and I am really worried that my mono will come back. I have already had it twice---I do not need it a 3rd time.

My photography has really taken off, too. I have at least 1-2 sessions a week. That is a little insane to add that to my schedule. 

I get beyond frustrated because I feel like I cannot dedicate the time to my photography that I want to. I just want to sit in my room at my desk and edit photos, but I literally do not even have time for that right now.

It is tempting at times to drop out of college and pursue my photography dream full-time. In fact, that whole plan sounds so appealing to me! But I know that I need to be in school right now. Also, I can only keep my current job if I am a BYU student, so that alone is enough to make me want to keep my job. I love my job so much.

Often, I am having to bribe myself to get out of bed in the morning. Then, I am reminded that I am where I need to be, and I am not alone.  

On top of all of this, I am in a situation right now that no other college student is in, and it requires quite a bit of my time. I have no control over what happens or how it happens, but sometimes, my schedule is not mine. Sometimes, I have to drop everything to attend to other things. 

There is a basketball game tonight, and I can't even go to that. Anyone who knows me now knows how bad this is. I don't miss basketball games for ANYTHING. They are my favorite.

Through all of this, more than ever, I have seen the hand of the Lord in my life EVERY DAY. 

I am not even kidding. I am blessed so much. I start to tear up every time that I think about it.

I will wake up feeling so overwhelmed with school and friends and work that I just cannot see myself making it through the day, but then I walk into a class and the teacher will cancel the following class, or an assignment will be moved. I know that the Lord is aware of me and my needs, and he is blessing me sooooooo much. I don't even know how else to say it. I am so blessed. I have had classes and assignments cancelled each week, and they all come at the perfect times. Basically, anyone who wants class cancelled a lot should just take the same schedule as me.

Anyways, that was a bunch of random thoughts that just came out of nowhere, but I wanted to vent. My blog has also been lacking a ton, and I hate that so much. Blogging is one of my favorite things to do, and so therapeutic for me.

But for now, if anyone needs me, I will be studying for my Accounting test and drinking my lactose free chocolate milk.

Tristan | Eastern Idaho Portrait Photographer

When I started taking photos years ago, I had no idea what relationships would be formed by taking photos. I had heard other photographers talk about making life-long friends just by taking their photos. I always seemed to shake my head. How was that possible? How in just a short time can you become good enough friends with someone to keep in touch? Maybe even become friends? 

Well, now I know.

This is Tristan. We grew up literally twenty minutes away from each other and are the same age. I had never met her, but she discovered me on Instagram and asked if I would take her mission photos, and I was instantly so excited! 

All I knew about Tristan was that she was gorgeous!

We decided to take her photos at Temple Square. It was right before conference, so the grounds were going to be gorgeous. Then, it came time to head to Salt Lake. I left an hour and a half before the shoot was suppose to start so that we would for sure have enough time to shoot and I would make it there one time. 

Then, everything went wrong. There were two accidents and traffic was at a standstill. 

It took 2 hours to arrive in Salt Lake. By the time I got there, we only had about 45 minutes to get shooting time in before the sun went down. We scrambled, but the photos turned out gorgeous. 

I knew I was coming to Idaho the next weekend, so I told her we could get back together to take more photos to make up for the time I missed. 

So, I headed to Idaho to make it to her shoot on time. My little sister had a cross country meet, and my mom talked me into going, promising that I would make it back in time for Tristan. Then, we got stuck in Rexburg, and I finally realized that I would not make it back anywhere near time that I could take photos. 

Once again, the worst scenario happened. I felt like such a horrible photographer! But, we rescheduled for the next day. 

The weather was perfect for photos, and Tristan's home was stunning. The location was gorgeous. 

Everything lined up, and the shoot was perfect. I am absolutely in love with all of the photos that I took. I ended up with over 300 photos edited, so you can imagine how hard it was to narrow down which ones to put on my blog!

Buuuuuut, back to my original point. I know now what it is like to meet someone and in just a few short hours, you can become friends. I literally love this girl! and I feel so cheated that I didn't know her in high school! I wish we could have met and hung out! But, I sure am glad we were able to meet through me taking her mission photos.I definitely have a forever friend!